I like looking through the fog.

I think if I were to feel normal

I would wonder what was wrong.

I like staring

Feeling nothing

Wishing I was thinking nothing.

Hard to believe

I am not an addict.

Once I was with a boy.

He was into heroin.

I was not.

But if I could go to an opium den

I think I would.

Sitting

Lying

Red

Smoke




Silk




Quiet.

They say taking heroin

is better than orgasm.

I wouldn't know.

I wouldn't be surprised.

I have always thought

Orgasms are overrated.

Maybe I haven't really had one?

Yeah, when it's happening, it's great.

But it lasts for not that long.

And to base the rest of your time

thinking about it and wishing

you were having one

right then

well that's just a waste of time.


I have often thought

if I were alone

and never had sex again

I don't feel

like

I

would

miss out on that much.


Of course

I'm not really going to do that

At least I don't think so.


Of course, I am not having sex

right now.

I mean,

I am not currently

in a relationship

in which

I

have

sex.

I

must confess

I wish I were.