I am sitting here in a caffeine-induced haze.  I have just finished applying for some jobs.
Hopefully I get one; then I won't be such a drain on myself.
:p

I have just texted my ex.
We have been hanging out.
Of course, as soon as we broke up and I had some time to myself, I have started to get horny again.
It is nice to feel somewhat more alive in that way.
Of course, it might be nice to sleep with someone other than my ex.
But we'll see what happens.
I have been to his new place.
I really like it.
I have also sent him some of my poems, and I think he likes them
Of course, not the one about the other guy.

I like that one, but it is quite personal and graphic.
Probably only good if strangers read that one.

I keep thinking that something will eventually happen.
That I'll get a job and it will magically catapult me into productivity.
Of course, that has not always helped before.






Inactivity.

Is not always what it seems.

Many people think if a person is just sitting there

They are doing nothing.

But in my estimation

Many people who are moving around

Talking

Eating

Walking

Are doing nothing

Or worse than nothing.

Because their absolutely worthless

viewpoints

Are allowed

to poison

things.

Detestable.




so anybody reading this feel free to criticize.