I have broken up with my boyfriend.
I am relieved.
In other happy news, I had a therapy appointment today with my counselor who I am seeing for various reasons, firstly for my eating disorder, but we also talk about my bad relationship w/ my parents and the rest of my family.  My parents have been wanting to talk to me, so I said, ok, you can come with me to my therapist.  I didn't really want to talk to them, but I did want to tell them why I didn't want to talk to them.  Basically, I just wanted to yell at them, and I figured I could most effectively do that at my therapist's. 
Well, it was emotional and messy and I don't want to do it again.  At least, any time soon.  It was helpful; i think that we understand each other a bit better.  but it will take some, or a lot of, time for me before i maybe want to talk to them again.
My therapist said they should come back in a few weeks.
We'll see.
In other news, I am still trying to figure out what I can do that I can support myself at and yet still be able to do it and not quit because i am depressed and too exhausted from my eating disorder.
Not unreasonable at all, right?
I just thought of this and it made me smile a bit.  Probably because I have a warped sense of humor and right now i am so tired of crying that i use any excuse to laugh.
my ex works at a hotel close to our (unfortunately) shared apt., which is good, cause that's where he's staying.
anyway, i will be moving in w/ one of my friends, i am excited about that.  it will be so nice to have some drama-free girl time.  i realize that might not sound like it makes sense, but with her, she is very matter-of-fact and not too emotional, and most importantly, she is not attracted to me, so we can just be friends, and i can just hang out and talk and if i get upset, i know there is someone who has a good perspective.
yay!!!!!
plus i can help her out w/ bills, and i hope i get a job soon.  it is not too expensive, but i would love to make money!
if you think of it, keep your fingers crossed for me.
if i were a hiring manager, i would hire me in a second!
i'm cute, nice, smart, and i take the things i care about very seriously.  and if the job isn't that important, yet i can make money at it, i care about it!
there is a new bakery that is opening; i hope i get hired there!
all this talk of new employment makes me think i should finish this and start job-hunting right away!
if you do read this and anything strikes you, please say.