I want to write something that means something.

I have group therapy today.

I am not looking forward to it.

But I don't really look forward to anything.

Except hanging out with friends.

And getting drunk.

And dancing.

And sometimes writing.

But not right now.

Oh well.

Anyway, I have been writing poetry most recently

But I would like to write prose that is meaningful as well.

A formal feeling

Fog

Want not to

think.

Easy

and hard.

Why

do I always

do the same thing?

I am human

I am sad

I am the same.

Nine inch nails said it best.

every day is exactly

the

same.

endless

relentless.

why

why

why can't it be something different?

well, I am still hungry quite often.

I got a new laptop yesterday; I am quite happy with it, as I am sitting in a coffee shop at this moment writing on it.

It is cute, smaller than my other one.

It is also slower, but hopefully it will not remain so.

I am aching to write and be published and work and not become tired.

I am gaining weight, slowly but I hope surely.
I am freaking out about it a little, but hope and pray that I can continue to gain and become stronger and more able to work.
Please, God, help me not to freak out, help me to be able to work.
Thank You.

Okay, so, I suppose I should write right now.
And, I need to compile what I have written so far and submit it for consideration for publication.

I also need to continue taking pictures and doing interviews.

Perhaps during warmer weather that will be easier.


Ok, so, there are my assignments;

Write
Attempt, actively, to get published
Make and organize garments for the fashion show
Cook
Eat
Pray
Lo....

ok, no, that last part was a joke :)

Anyway, back to assignments--

really are to cook and eat
clean
live
talk to people whom I like
(easier said than done :)

aaaand keep taking pictures and blogging.

I want to be a "real" journalist, a real photographer and writer.
And I want to be able to support myself while doing so.

Please, God.

Amen.

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