I want to start doing something creative, instead of just appreciating others' creative efforts.  I could start sewing;  I need to set up my sewing machine and get some materials.  This requires money, which has been holding me back.  I could write, but honestly the fog through which I operate as a result of my hunger does hold me back.  I want to rise above that, though, get over it and have it not affect me any more.
Please, God.
Anyway, while I am sitting here, I will try to make use of my time as best I can, even though I am hungry, and express myself a bit, as much as I can.
After this I will go to the store and then home.
So how I can express myself creatively.  Sewing, then posting on here about it.  Writing, both poems and prose.  About eating, about French, in French...
Must keep up listening to, reading, and speaking French.  Translating, etc.  I should make that a priority, tonight.  Tonight I need to clean, eat, etc.  I can't wait to get home and have some ice cream.  I know it is not good for me, but I do crave it, and it is hard to deny my cravings, since I spend so much time denying myself, I think.  I don't even think about it any more; it is such a "normal" part of me that I feel odd if I do not do that.  In fact, I cannot even think about not doing that.  I hope and pray  that will change someday.  Please, God, help me. 
I have been writing to my brother; I have not told him  much, I don't think; I don't want to over-burden him.  He is going through his own hard times.  I need to pray for him as well.  Please, God, be with him and comfort him and his family while he is away.  Thank you for his family, Milo and Lucca, (and bridget :P )  and please, God, help my relationship w/ my family to be better.  Help me to be honest w/ them and express myself w/ them, but not hurt them.  Thank you.  I know it is a tall order, but all I can think of to do is pray.  and please, God, help me w/ jacob.  help him to feel better.  help him to find a job.  help him not to be angry.  help him to know how much you and i love him.  help us to get along and show how much we love each other every day.  thank you for him.  help me not to worry.  thank you. 
okay, enough praying.  so on to doing something creative.  well, when i get home, i can try.  really i think cleaning would be  a big step.
okay i am hungry.  i